Since July 25th, 2012 I have been traveling on and off around the world and around the US. I left thinking I would find some meaning to life (I blame Jeff Salbato for that). What I have found so far is an absolute lack of meaning or purpose. At first that scared the daylights out of me.
Is it possible that everything I have strived towards could be purposeless? Does my desire for a bright future really not amount to anything more than an inbred need to provide for offspring?
It took me a year or so to accept that yes, yes it is. All of it.
It took me the last two years to realize that this is not a sad thing. It is scary, intimidating, and ultimately freeing.
I have started to look at life more like driving to some unknown destination. With birth being your departure and death your arrival. There are plenty of places and things to see in between. Nothing you really have to do and the actually location of your destination is up to you. It can be across the the country or just down the road, and you can travel any way you want to get there.
You get two gears for your life, Drive and Neutral, we spend all our time moving forward hoping for moments of neutral that let us breathe.
If you were to ask me, I think most people choose to take the highway to get there quickly and smoothly. They will put up with the traffic and the occasional speed trap but overall, it will be an easy going ride.
I will take the back roads, the pot holes, flat tires, and weird little towns. I’ll be a little more worse for wear when I arrive at my destination but the miles I will have seen and experienced.. No amount of social success or wealth can beat it.
Something to think about, certainly what I think about while enjoying neutral on the beaches of far off lands. Love you all!